Still wide awake at 6.35am now.
Not tired at all. Sober, mind thinking through things.
Thinking from different angles the things you said.
They doesnt make sense, if you said you love me so much.
Tried thinking from your view, only one conclusion, s.e.l.f.I.s.h
Both reasons/excuses benefited you.

3rd time, I should be able to cope better this time. No, its still the same.
Always bringing me high up, then threw me down.
That's you, I suppose.

From this, I learnt a lesson.
1. Not to be softhearted
2. No point being nice, best or anything when you'll still get fucked in the end
3. Never lose yourself in the process of loving, because you'll end up with nothing
4. Never love anyone so much again
5. Better to be called sluts & bitches rather than being hurt & crying