2nd xmas together. Last year was better though. Maybe because it's still "honeymoon".

Town with Jan.
Shokudo for damn late lunch
Taka, Ion then finally Paragon to get darling's present.
Wanted to get him a top which is simple & black & fitting.
Topman does not have nice tops, Zara too.
AX does not have his size. So Ben Shermans was the last choice.
Soup spoon @ Paragon as it's pouring outside & im tired walking ard with a heavy bag.
Thai express for darling & friends' dinner.
Parted with Jan.
AX as i told him of a gold printings top. But to no avail.
Train'd to Clarke Quay. Waited for their friends for an hour STANDING UP.
Darling shared my burden by carring my bag :)

Grand Hollywood to celebrate xmas.
Home'd @ 2am.



Saturday, Aunt's house @ Hillview.
AMK to meet tracy bitch @ 10pm. I waited for her for AN HOUR.
Sua to srg before last bus. Continued our bitching till 3+am.
Quite surprising, i merely know her for 5 months, 3rd time meeting her ytd, but seems like we have never ending topics. & our topics no more involve MAN O.

Sunday, peaceful time @ Library alone as my bf MIA'd on me, like again.
Aunt's house @ Yishun.
Home.





When was the last time we chatted on phone before we sleep? I doubt we both remember, cause it's been so long .... As you're always out.
You told me "Bad times are over." - But i don't think so, it's worse.
You always said you know & you understand, but i dont see any effort.
I stopped making noise, you start going overbroad. I make noise, you put the blame on me.
Very disappointing & discouraging, at times, i feel that i'll be better off without you.
How to convince me that you've changed?
Your friends dont know how to think for your gf, they dont understand the term "spend time with gf" (but when they have one, they'll do so).
They don't understand nvm, but you?! You wont zi dong say no. They go out, you follow. ME? You expect me to think for you. Yes you need time with your friends. But not to the extend of meeting 7 days a week. & meeting me ONCE and somemore is WITH YOUR FRIENDS.
TELL ME HOW TO CONTINUE, PLEASE!

Whatever it is, we shall have a good talk tomorrow. Either you stay or you leave. If you choose to stay, and this same shit happens, i'll fuck off.
I should've fucked off long ago. I told myself to never let it happen, & if it does, i'll leave.
No more chances after 384378783676724969706 times. You need your freedom & friends, tell me straight.